As a I start a new journey in writing, focusing more on my website and beginning my work with the wonderful people at 25YL/Sports Obsessive/Horror Obsessive. I was hit with a sudden thought, what kind of woman do I want to be?
And how has the past year changed and shaped me?
Did it make me more confident in my abilities as a mother, career woman and person? Yes
Did it also wreak havoc on my metal health to the point where I am a proud member of the medicated club? Also Yes
Did I get my heart broken and left so shattered from opening myself up to the possibility of a life with another human being, with promises broken and a child who had grown attached to this person, that I am only now just putting myself back together? Big YES
So I’m putting together this list of promises to myself:
I promise to be kind, even to those who are not kind to me
I promise to always know my self worth and not allow anyone to make me feel worthless, both professionally and personally.
I promise to trust my instincts.
I promise to always say how I feel, even if that will upset someone.
I promise to always stand my ground and insist that I am not stand offish or bossy, I am professional and assertive.
I will never again allow someone to undermine me or my process, I am organised and I plan ahead and that won’t change.
I will never again allow someone to try and control the narrative because they don’t want to be seen in a bad light.
I will try and open myself back up again, to experience things again and enjoy life to it’s fullest.
I promise to work on myself, focus on myself, my wants, my needs and my career.
I promise to be the best mum I can be, even on the days where I don’t feel quite like myself.
I make these promises to myself because I need to.
And I can’t wait for all of you to see how I bloom in the next year.